Yesterday afternoon, I sat down with my Bible and notebook. For some time now, I have felt God calling me to come further in and higher up with Him. What a wonderful thing! The Almighty God wants a closer relationship with me! And how have I responded? Primarily with laziness and self-centeredness. Yuck. I hate when those two traits rear their ugly heads in my life. Yuck, yuck, yuck!
You have to give time, energy, and self in order to have relationship with someone. And having a relationship with Jesus Christ is no different. It takes hard work. It takes time. It takes a willingness to give over your selfish desires and seek the desires of Someone else.
As I prayed through this matter, these thoughts came into my mind:
If I was getting a grade…one that would appear on a report card or transcript…I would be more diligent in my pursuit of Christ. Is it not enough that the Heavenly Father is my teacher and my very deeds are recorded in His book for eternity? Lord, forgive me.You see, I have always been a hardworking pupil. From kindergarten to my graduate degree work, I have rarely given less than my best. But when it comes to the most important relationship of my life, why would I often settle for mediocre effort? I am frustrated with myself. Praise the Lord that His mercies are new every morning. And today is the beginning of Lent. A time for denying self and preparing for the Lord. What better time to turn over a new leaf?
My Bible reading yesterday just happened to be the passage below. Christ will be the One who gives our final grade. Our salvation does not rest on diligence or works, but these things will determine our reward. So I ask myself...Don't you want to end this class of life knowing that you held nothing back..that you did your very best? And don't you want close communion with God here in this life? My answer is a resounding YES! Lord, help me!
I Corinthians 3:10-15
By the grace God has given me, I laid a foundation as an expert builder, and someone else is building on it. But each one should be careful how he builds. For no one can lay any foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ. If any man builds on this foundation using gold, silver, costly stones, wood, hay or straw, his work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each man's work. If what he has built survives, he will receive his reward. If it is burned up, he will suffer loss; he himself will be saved, but only as one escaping through the flames.